March 6, 2000-April 30, 2013
Jake several years earlier, before he became ill.
He had started having trouble breathing last week and I had him at the vet's several times. She thought he had Cushing's disease because he was showing most of the signs and wanted to have him tested, so I took him in yesterday morning for that. He was already on medication for a thyroid problem. I guess we caught it too late.
Dave found him in our bathroom this morning after he suddenly became very quiet. He went to check on him and that was when he saw that Jake had passed away.
He was our first pup here in Iowa. We adopted him from the Animal Lifeline of Iowa then located in Carlisle, Iowa. He slept on my chest the whole way home. A month later Rolli showed up and we decided to keep her as a playmate for him. They were inseparable. It was so fun watching them play with each other. He was my constant companion and followed me wherever I went in the house. He was also my fierce protector.
I admit I lost patience with him as he got older, mostly because of his constant barking, but I hope he knew that I did love him and will miss him dearly. He gave me his love unconditionally and I pray he forgave me my shortcomings. I am so mad at myself because I put those earplugs in my ears this morning so that I could sleep. I should have known that he wasn't doing well and stayed up with him. At least then I could have told him in his last moments how much I did love him and been with him when he passed. At this moment I feel like I failed him.
I know, I shouldn't beat myself up over it and eventually I will feel better. Right now, however, the hurt is just too fresh. I feel as if I've lost a part of my heart. He was my dog and I feel I should have done a lot more for him.
Jake, I'm so sorry and I miss you terribly.
Goodbye sweet pup.

