Last Day of 2012

So this is it, the last day of the year. Another year over, a new one about to begin.

The BIG question of course is, "Have you made ant New Year resolutions?

Mine always seem to be the same, lose weight, not to let things bother me so much, etc., etc. This year and I've just thought of it, but it's something I tend to do a lot. My own sister pointed it out to me awhile back and she's right, I tend to play the victim a lot, so next year, I resolve not to play the victim which also goes along with not letting things bother me so much. I resolve not let the resentment take hold of me like it has in the past.

I need to face facts that what happened in the past I can't change, I can only change how I react to things from now on. I need to quit dwelling on past hurts. Yes, I had been hurt, but who hasn't and who says that my hurts are any worse than any one's else? I know of people who have been hurt far worse, by loss, by betrayal and have come out stronger for it. I need to point to them as an example  and strive to be more like them.

I can be strong, I know I can. I need to put past hurts where they belong, in the past. This morning was the last time I will dwell on those past hurts and the resentment that came with them and now I will strive not to dwell on them anymore. What was done was done, period. No sense in crying over spilled milk, as the old saying goes.

Tomorrow is the start of a new beginning. Yes, I do resolve to lose weight, I've actually done a good job of maintaining, but it means going to the gym on a regular basis. I admit that I used the holidays as an excuse not to go, but I resolve to again make going to the gym a priority. I always feel better for going anyway.

I also resolve to declutter. We've gotten rid of and donated a lot of stuff around here but there is so much more that needs to be gotten rid of. I guess I can also use my earlier resolution and vow to declutter my mind as well. to keep the stuff that's important to remember and throw out the stuff that's not. I need to especially remember that a lot of good has happened in my life as well. I need to remember those times more. They seem to get pushed to the back when they should be front and center. I've been blessed in many ways and I need to remember that give thanks for it more.

So, there you have it, my new year's resolutions. I am going to try my hardest to keep them, especially the first one because to me it is the most important. I need that one for my mental health and the gym for mt physical health. If I can do both, I will be a much happier person. Personally, I'm tired of being miserable.

Borrowed from a friend, but so appropriate for this post.